mood: happy
music: Whenever You Remember - Carrie Underwood
praises: fabulous last minute memories with people I love, random FB conversations that end up making my day, sweet friends, freedom to praise
prayers: safety for the Bergs and Will as they travel back from Mammoth, baptism - to be spiritually prepared, safe travels, non-hectic airport check-ins, a great time in Houston with Auntie, direction and insight into His will regarding classes, career, and activities
I have a week left in California! a week! that's crazy! I'm not even all done packing yet. And I have to help pack for the family too! I hope Auntie is ready for our two troublemakers in addition to the kids she is already babysitting! I'm excited to see Houston and I hope it's not going to be too hot. The heat is horrible for my acne.
I hope I get some free time from what mom and Auntie have planned so I can go chat with Nate too! It'll be so good to catch up in person!
So, I've realized that distance means little when the people I love matter so much. It'll be tough at first, not seeing everyone, but I know I will make it through, with God's help of course :) More and more, I'm seeing that God just wants me to live for Him, live and relish in all that He's blessed me with. Today, Lia shared with me something she read in Genesis: "One great line from the end of Genesis was Joseph's 'you meant evil against me, but God intended it for good.' Yet another reminder that God'll make things work out even when things seem to be against you."
Isn't that simply amazing?
And I really appreciate the lessons that Thai and Danay have been teaching, which are further assurances that God really wants me to focus on school, on pursuing my passions, pursuing things that make me who I am. I don't need to start dating any time soon. If the opportunity comes, sure. But I won't be looking because I have my eyes set on other things. I already have a list of places and things I want to do under the "exploration" tab of my Yale binder. It's cool that He speaks through people, events, haha basically everything!
Also, I'm really excited to discover for myself what independence really means. Mom isn't going to be around to remind me to sleep, to eat, or to wear my retainers. And now that I really inspect it, I realize my mother has been extremely strict with me, but she has raised me well. There are some things I would change, but overall, I'm glad she's my mom.
The other day, Betsy emailed me back and told me that Yale does not have archery... which was kind of stinky because I was totally looking forward to trying something like that. Oh well. maybe ultimate frisbee then! :) ahhaha
Last night, I had great conversations with Teresa and Jordan, two very important people in my life. They are such inspiration to me and their kind hearts are extremely rare. How blessed am I to be their friend :)
I miss Nancy, as she's in Las Vegas right now. And I love the Rainbows she got for me. They bring my feet joy! and hanging with her for a day was fantabulous!
That's all for now! back to packing. yip.pee.
Have a sunshine-filled day! :)
Monday, August 10, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Another day in August
mood: at peace
music: the sound of my family eating home-made pho
praises: mom and I are doing well with our relationship, we are talking more!, all the tickets are finished and ordered!
prayers: separation anxiety, safe travels, and a blast of a time with the time that I have left in CA
Speaking of home-made pho, which is the best kind out there, I will miss this Asian delicacy a lot once I am in New Haven. There's just something different about the pho that Mommy makes. Not only is it healthier, but it is also done in love.
Today was another draining day. Swim lessons in the morning, trying to figure out which levels A and A belong in, negotiating with the manager. I got about fifteen minutes of reading in from How to Read a Book, the book that I'm trying to read now. You'd think after high school and getting into Yale, I'd know how to read a book. But no, according to Adler, I don't, and neither do you :) So, if you have the time, pick a copy up and start reading it! it's pretty insightful!
Then after that, we went on a couple of errands, visited Dad at work to get paperwork done. Then, went home and spent four hours trying to catch good deals on tickets from Continental Airlines. Now that all the airplane tickets are done, I have to start booking shuttle tickets, to actually get to Phelps Gate. It was ridiculously tiresome.
Nancy called mid-day and I had a great conversation with her. That girl never fails to bring a giant smile to my face and a hearty laugh to my soul. I look forward to seeing her on Friday! ROAD TRIP! :)
Then, I spent another hour or two on Facebook, answering all messages, comments, and making some too. I also had a great time conversing with Will, Tory, Lisa, and Mallorie. Yeah FB CHAT! :)
Now, I must go through my closet and pick out what I need to bring, and start packing. I've mentally packed, but not physically. Haha :)
I am looking forward to my birthday and Baptism, and spending time with friends before I leave for Yale. Whoopee!
Yep. That's all for today.
Oh, and yesterday, for DEVO, I read through a chapter of Proverbs and a chapter in Jeremiah. My DEVO life is still quite shaky, but I'm working on it! Here are a couple of verses I liked from Chapter 16:
"To man belong the plans of the heart, but from the Lord comes the reply of the tongue." 16:1
"Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed." 16:3
"Whoever gives heed to instruction prospers, and blessed is he who trusts in the Lord." 16:20
"A perverse man stirs up dissension and a gossip separates close friends." 16:28
And you know what I realize? Things might not be so bad after all. Like a great friend of mine said, it's not a tragedy, this moving away thing. I just have to trust God to take care of me, and I know He will. always.
music: the sound of my family eating home-made pho
praises: mom and I are doing well with our relationship, we are talking more!, all the tickets are finished and ordered!
prayers: separation anxiety, safe travels, and a blast of a time with the time that I have left in CA
Speaking of home-made pho, which is the best kind out there, I will miss this Asian delicacy a lot once I am in New Haven. There's just something different about the pho that Mommy makes. Not only is it healthier, but it is also done in love.
Today was another draining day. Swim lessons in the morning, trying to figure out which levels A and A belong in, negotiating with the manager. I got about fifteen minutes of reading in from How to Read a Book, the book that I'm trying to read now. You'd think after high school and getting into Yale, I'd know how to read a book. But no, according to Adler, I don't, and neither do you :) So, if you have the time, pick a copy up and start reading it! it's pretty insightful!
Then after that, we went on a couple of errands, visited Dad at work to get paperwork done. Then, went home and spent four hours trying to catch good deals on tickets from Continental Airlines. Now that all the airplane tickets are done, I have to start booking shuttle tickets, to actually get to Phelps Gate. It was ridiculously tiresome.
Nancy called mid-day and I had a great conversation with her. That girl never fails to bring a giant smile to my face and a hearty laugh to my soul. I look forward to seeing her on Friday! ROAD TRIP! :)
Then, I spent another hour or two on Facebook, answering all messages, comments, and making some too. I also had a great time conversing with Will, Tory, Lisa, and Mallorie. Yeah FB CHAT! :)
Now, I must go through my closet and pick out what I need to bring, and start packing. I've mentally packed, but not physically. Haha :)
I am looking forward to my birthday and Baptism, and spending time with friends before I leave for Yale. Whoopee!
Yep. That's all for today.
Oh, and yesterday, for DEVO, I read through a chapter of Proverbs and a chapter in Jeremiah. My DEVO life is still quite shaky, but I'm working on it! Here are a couple of verses I liked from Chapter 16:
"To man belong the plans of the heart, but from the Lord comes the reply of the tongue." 16:1
"Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed." 16:3
"Whoever gives heed to instruction prospers, and blessed is he who trusts in the Lord." 16:20
"A perverse man stirs up dissension and a gossip separates close friends." 16:28
And you know what I realize? Things might not be so bad after all. Like a great friend of mine said, it's not a tragedy, this moving away thing. I just have to trust God to take care of me, and I know He will. always.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
August!
mood: lethargic
music: There You'll Be - Faith Hill, I've been stuck on this song for a while, it has a calming effect on me. Here's the chorus:
In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There will always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
WOW. It's already August! In just 16 days, I will be an official "adult." Joy! And then, one day after that, I'll be leaving California. I must say, this is truly a bittersweet month. Another big event is my baptism on my birthday as well! I am super excited for that. But when that day comes, it means I have to leave all that is familiar and comforting to head off into the "future." Time sure sneaks up on me. Bittersweet, see?
For the last week, I've spent my waking hours trying to contemplate what I want to do with my life. Okay, so not as dramatic as that, but I'm trying to figure out what classes I want to take. I'm fearful of choosing the "wrong" class that will mess up my education career at Yale. I emailed Professor Bailyn yesterday asking about Astronomy, Physics, and Math courses and he replied promptly, which I appreciated very much. Some possible tracks I might take include:
Majoring in Astronomy, then going on to Medical School, then becoming a doctor... but what kind of doctor? psychiatrist, anestesiologist, pediatrician? who knows. Is becoming a doctor even right for me? How do I know?
Another option, major in Teacher Preparation and Education, become a teacher or educational worker. Another option, major in Pscychology and become a psychologist.
That's all I have so far. Notice a common theme that there is an absence of Politics, Business, and History. It'll be some sick life joke if I end up doing something in one of those three subject areas. And with med school, my number one fear would be how will I also have a legit life while going through those four horrendous years, not counting residency? I've been reading a couple of blogs from current med students and residents, and it's realistically horrible, the life of a med student. Sleep deprivation, unhealthy eating, personality disorders are recurrent themes. Do I really want to go through that?
And there's this other part of me that wants to defy the typical Asian stereotype. But then again I shouldn't let stereotypes define or direct my actions.
I really admire my peers who already know what they want to do with their lives.
I do know one thing, whatever it is I end up doing, it better be something that honors God, lets me make a difference in others' lives, and allows me to be who I am.
So, I'm going to give blue booking another chance today, since my headache is moderately better, then I'm going to go play with the kids, and who knows what else.
Church is tomorrow! yay :) , but it's also my third to last Sunday at Midcities before the big move :( I'll be back for Thanksgiving, though!
And sometimes, when I've successfully convinced myself that I don't care anymore and there's nothing I can do about certain situations, I'd go out to shoot baskets and I'd look at my front yard... and all those memories would come flooding back, and I find myself drowned in thoughts of him. When the evening sunlight hits the tree at the right angle, that special evening four months ago could be recreated in my mind. Life's cruel.
music: There You'll Be - Faith Hill, I've been stuck on this song for a while, it has a calming effect on me. Here's the chorus:
In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There will always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
WOW. It's already August! In just 16 days, I will be an official "adult." Joy! And then, one day after that, I'll be leaving California. I must say, this is truly a bittersweet month. Another big event is my baptism on my birthday as well! I am super excited for that. But when that day comes, it means I have to leave all that is familiar and comforting to head off into the "future." Time sure sneaks up on me. Bittersweet, see?
For the last week, I've spent my waking hours trying to contemplate what I want to do with my life. Okay, so not as dramatic as that, but I'm trying to figure out what classes I want to take. I'm fearful of choosing the "wrong" class that will mess up my education career at Yale. I emailed Professor Bailyn yesterday asking about Astronomy, Physics, and Math courses and he replied promptly, which I appreciated very much. Some possible tracks I might take include:
Majoring in Astronomy, then going on to Medical School, then becoming a doctor... but what kind of doctor? psychiatrist, anestesiologist, pediatrician? who knows. Is becoming a doctor even right for me? How do I know?
Another option, major in Teacher Preparation and Education, become a teacher or educational worker. Another option, major in Pscychology and become a psychologist.
That's all I have so far. Notice a common theme that there is an absence of Politics, Business, and History. It'll be some sick life joke if I end up doing something in one of those three subject areas. And with med school, my number one fear would be how will I also have a legit life while going through those four horrendous years, not counting residency? I've been reading a couple of blogs from current med students and residents, and it's realistically horrible, the life of a med student. Sleep deprivation, unhealthy eating, personality disorders are recurrent themes. Do I really want to go through that?
And there's this other part of me that wants to defy the typical Asian stereotype. But then again I shouldn't let stereotypes define or direct my actions.
I really admire my peers who already know what they want to do with their lives.
I do know one thing, whatever it is I end up doing, it better be something that honors God, lets me make a difference in others' lives, and allows me to be who I am.
So, I'm going to give blue booking another chance today, since my headache is moderately better, then I'm going to go play with the kids, and who knows what else.
Church is tomorrow! yay :) , but it's also my third to last Sunday at Midcities before the big move :( I'll be back for Thanksgiving, though!
And sometimes, when I've successfully convinced myself that I don't care anymore and there's nothing I can do about certain situations, I'd go out to shoot baskets and I'd look at my front yard... and all those memories would come flooding back, and I find myself drowned in thoughts of him. When the evening sunlight hits the tree at the right angle, that special evening four months ago could be recreated in my mind. Life's cruel.
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